1 Samuel 1:27-28

1 Samuel 1:27-28
I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD.” And he worshiped the LORD there.

This post is partially inspired by one of my bestest friends. She recently wrote on her blog about her prayers being answered and included a small list of answered prayers one being me and this little one I have growing inside me. It truly brought tears to my eyes. I knew she was praying for me as much as my husband and I were praying for eachother and for the child we knew He had planned for us but it truly touched my heart that not only was this baby an answered prayer for us, it was for her as well.

When I was pregnant with Mia I found this verse and I remember repeating it many times throughout my pregnancy. The first meaning of Mia's name that I came across was 'prayed/wished for child'. Every time I wondered why or questioned the tough moments in my pregnancy with her I reminded myself of this verse. Mia was prayed for and the Lord granted me what I asked of Him. Just as this little one growing inside of me.

I definitely have not gone through or done many of the things I did in Mia's pregnancy this time around. I have had the same feelings and emotions but I think I just better know how to handle them this time and realize they are crazy pregnancy hormones not what I literally think or feel. It's amazing how something so small growing inside can bring up so many crazy thoughts and actions! It somewhat saddens me for not knowing that this was a part of being pregnant the first time around and that I hurt some very special people because my hormones were simply out of control. Luckily I have had the chance to appologize and rebuild some of those relationships and I am truly thankful for that. I am thankful this pregnancy has made me remember what happened in my last and let me be better prepared for how to handle things and to realize this is just a part of pregnancy for me for some reason.

This week I found myself remembering and repeating this verse over and over again as I battled with awful morning sickness and poor Mia feeling like a 'frog with the chicken pox' as she put it. I struggled with the feeling of being so sick and doubling it up having my baby girl sick and nothing I could do about either. It brings on this feeling of loneliness I cannot describe and have only felt when pregnant. As much as my husband is there for me he is not going through the horrible feeling of sickness and it really brought this sadness of feeling alone inside of me. He recognized it before I did and without me even saying I felt alone he told me I was not alone and that he was always right there by my side. It was exactly what I needed to hear even though I didnt know I needed to hear it.

Mia asked tonight if I wished I only had one baby to worry about and take care of right now and tears filling my eyes I told her that I love both of my babies and I prayed for both of them and that God granted my prayers and trusted me to take care of both of them always and I would never let Him down. I am so thankful for my answered prayers, all of them, big and small. My children are the best blessings I have ever been given and I believe my prayers were answered the day He brought them into my life.

With that written I am choosing to accept the morning sickness and hard times through this pregnancy. I prayed for it and it was given to me. I want to cherish it and be thankful for the Lord granting my (and many others) prayers even on the tough days I need to remember I am truly blessed. I am looking forward to embracing this jouney with my husband and daughter and enjoying the good along with the rough!

Thank you Lord for all of my granted prayers.

Here is my 7 week belly picture, enjoy!